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I am really struggling with driving in general. I am also struggling as a new trucker. I've only been off my trainer's truck for about 2 weeks now. And yet I just can't seem to get a load in on time and plan right. On top of that, I stupidly volunteered for a touch freight account and completely blew it. I was able to deliver a few loads and able to unload. But I just wasn't ready for the actual driving. Today they sent me into a city and I just froze. There were cars on both sides of my truck and I was on a very narrow Street. I ended up having to take the load back because I just couldn't get over my fear and make a turn. I did not want to hit somebody and I just did not feel experienced enough to back into a dock off a busy street.

I have learned a lot. I can back better than I have in a long time I have to admit, I got into some pretty tight situations and got right back out of them. But my nerves are just starting to get the best of me. I don't want to quit, that is not my goal at all. I was wondering if this was normal. Do all rookie drivers struggle this much? I know the company has something to do with the treatment. I understand that I'm not going to be treated like a princess. But I just feel like I've been thrown to the wolves and expected to make these moves that no driver should make after only being on their own for a few days. I guess I'm looking for encouragement. I'm questioning whether or not things are going to get better. Very torn on whether or not to call it quits or just keep Truckin. I really do not want to quit though.

I am about to team up with a friend of mine. I think that will alleviate a lot of fear because I don't like working alone. But I want to just get an idea of how others struggled or at least be told by somebody whether this is normal or not. Either way thank you for whoever reads this and whoever replies.