Profile For Lesa M.

My question is, I got my DOT physical, my CDL permit, and completed a week at a trucking shcool here in Springfiled, MO but my first run driving I was put with an instructor who I think doesn't like women, he made the other lady cry. Not that what he was saying wasn't true but it was how he said it. Bascially told her that if she didn't stop putting the clutch all the way to the floor she was going to ruin the truck and it was expensive, so she needed to pull her head out her &%# and this wasn't funny or a game (she was smilling at him while he was saying all this to her, trying not to cry). Anyway, I got behind the wheel and told him that I was really nervous, he asked my why? I said, because I've never driven a big #$* truck before. He said, "why are you here?" I said, so I can learn to drive a big *%@ truck! The first time was difficult and his personality or way of instruction I didn't care for. The second run, he told me NOT to put my seat up but I'm short legged and I have to so that I can press the cluth in to take off in 3rd gear. He got mad and gave me all these reasons why you don't need to put the seat up and have it too high, I understood what he was saying and I put it back a little and down a bit but I told him, I had to put it up some. He got irrate and said that I was neglecting to follow instructor directions,grabbed my book and started writing in it. I was pulling out when he did this and it just made me even more nervous. I thought he was failing me and I was trying to talk to him but he wouldn't talk to me and WOULD NOT GIVE ME DRIVING INSTRUCTION! I pretty much did it on my own, with "Jesus at the wheel." Not kidding, he had us shift going across the railroad tracks and then later yelled at us for doing it. I asked him why he told us to do it then. He said, to see how nervous we were and if we would do it??? He got in the drivers seat and said he was going to show us how to make turns. I was sitting in the front and hanging onto the hand raila the dash for dear life. He was going fast making the turns and wipped in back quick, we were slung from one side to the other. I looked at him in horror and almost frozen, I couldn't believe it! I was thinking, this guy is nuts!!! I told the director that I didn't feel safe with this instructor and that any of the 4 other instructors I would be glad to go with but he refused to let me. He said, "it was just a misunderstanding and that down played the whole thing. The instructor said, he didn't get angry and the only reason he didn't instruct me was because he thought that I had drove before, which was a total lie. The director said, I just needed to trust him, really??? I'm looking for another school, but I feel bad that I left. Someone asked me if I did the right thing, I told them I don't know, I think I did but it's going to be hard to get into another school because they don't let you start in your second week, they want you to start all over again and my funding won't pay for first week again.How can I drive with an instructor if I dont' feel safe and we were supposed to go drive in downtown Springfield that day. What if he did it to me agaqin, the director said, "did anything get broken?" I told him, "only my trust!"

I've got my funding and will start CDL classes in a week or two. I went from a year of RN school to trucking because in RN scool you have to wait 2 years to make an income. I've got to make a living and can't wait for another year. I've read about the life style and I've been a single mom for 15 years so I know that I can do it and love it as well. Appreciate any comments