Sometimes you just suck it up a do your job. When my dad died, I was on a load to Ohio. My brother called me while I was driving along. It was late that night that that he passed. I called CFI and they headed me on a load or two to LI to be with my family. It was difficult to keep it together at times.
Sometimes, on Long lonely drive your emotions can creep up on you. If necessary, pull off the road for a few minutes and get yourself back together.
Sorry you are going through such a difficult time right now.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through those problems especially when your stress is already super high due to being a newly solo driver. I'm not sure if there were problems before you got started trucking or not but what's done is done unfortunately.
I understand the difficulty of staying focused on the road when you're going through difficult times. I had an extremely bizarre thing happen to me that was difficult to push aside. I took a load near where I grew up and about 4am I received a call from my dad saying grandma passed away. Despite being 10 miles away I couldn't stay up there to be with my family due to being a home daily driver (I was 230 miles from home). When I finished unloading that store I pulled off to the side in case another driver showed up I wouldn't be in their way. I was able to control my emotions until someone approached my truck (430am) and asked to pray for me despite them not being aware of anything. I sat there for about 10 minutes trying to regain my composure. It's extremely important we stay focused at all times. All it takes is a split 2nd for things to happen. Being that you just finished training I doubt you're eligible for hometime but take some as soon as you're able to. Treat yourself to somewhere that interests you.
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So I posted in my training diary that I am going through a huge family ordeal. Pretty much me and my wife are in the middle of separation possibly a divorce. Her and my boys are in Florida now and today is my boys gotcha day...the day I adopted them. Im not gonna bs and say that it doesn't affect me. I've bursted into tears more than once today. One because od course i miss them and two they my pride and joy. I am waiting on "The Bulldawg" (my boys name for my truck) to be done in the shop.. so im not driving right now. How do you guys keep your emotions out of the drivers seat?