Hardest Part Of Being Out Here

No hugs.

Not like "commercial company" hugs.

Just..."Man, you've had a rough day! Let me give you a hug, friend!"

Most days, I'm fine. But today...between the wind, ice, traffic, having to cut someone off because they just WOULDN'T let me over no matter how long my blinker had been on (that driver was kind enough, after he being the one who sped up after I started making my lane change when there was finally a teeny weeny break in traffic, to hang himself out the window flip me off and scream out his window as he passed me), etc etc etc.

It's like no matter how I drive, I'm always ruining someone's day. It breaks my heart. I'm Sunshine! I don't want to ruin your day. I want to bring you cool stuff that makes your life easier and better and happier! I want to make you laugh and smile and enjoy life!

I'm on my 12th load now. Heading up the backside of Pikes Peak tomorrow morning to deliver to a mine. I'm scared. (Look up Hwy 67 from Divide, CO to Cripple Creek.) I'm tired. I'm sad. I think I need my dogs, my mom, and my own bed for a few days.

And I'm not saying all of this for any sort of pity. I'll be fine. I always am. I guess I just had to tell someone who would understand. Friends and family don't really get it. They try. But it's not the same.

I'll tell you about all the happy stuff one day. There's been lots of that, too! More than the hard stuff. :) I don't mean to sound whiny or depressing...

Ps: The truck driver "code of honor" is dying out. I had ONE driver thank me for the "all clear" signal as he passed me today. ONE. He put a smile on my face for doing that. It made me feel human again for a little while. There's so much out here that will strip that away from you. Somedays I feel like an animal or a machine. Luckily, those days are few.

I still love what I do and I am so happy and grateful to be a truck driver. But tonight my pillow will be tear stained...

(One giant e-hug for the young lady who needs it )

Hugs to you! I really do love hugs, I'm a total hug****. I'll hug just about anyone who wants one lol!

Thanks for sharing! ::hugs::

You're feeling down. The upside is it's only temporary! Stay safe and stay focused!

< big hug>

Sending massive hugs your way driver... :)

I must be an oddball, lol I've always gave a flash to pass to trucks along the I-40 , or will slow to let em change lanes. Have since I started driving cars pretty much, just lettin' em know, specially at night, they are clear, or after i get ahead of em, give em a quick 2 brake light tap to say "thanks" for letting me pass. (well ahead, so they don't think I'm brake checkin em )

Don't worry Sunshine, they're day evidently already sucked, or just their usual ****y attitude in life :) Sadly, most of our society has gotten too selfish, it's the "ME, ME, ME" attitude, and a total lack of common sense, anymore.

Suck it up buttercup your on the home stretch lol... It will all work out soon enough.. When a 4 wheeler gives me the finger I give a long tug on the air horn to let them know they effed up...

But here's a great big a$$ hug OK the smiley looks like he's giving you a weird hug lol...

Sunshine- your posts are very, very enjoyable reading. I know what you mean- about how important relationships/ friendships are. I just said a prayer for you- for your safety on the road and other things.

You're writing is an encouragement. Thanks

Right now I'm not driving. I'm thinking about getting back into it in Feb 2016, when winter is about half way over. I'm inexperienced. Looks like Schneiders' 6/3 in St Louis area would work best for me until I find a "daily home" job.

Keep the "rubber side" down!

Not to worry about jerks in cars. There will always be those on the road.

Last week I was in a similar lane change situation: 3/4 of a mile to an off ramp, a Pepsi delivery truck just at my rear bumper on my right. I signaled to change lanes, the local driver ****** sped up in that last half mile, instead of simply backing off a tiny but. So I have a reason to prefer Coke over Pepsi!

Sunshine, the sun does shine on all the world. The good people and the bad receive it's benefits. You have been quite a bright ray of sunshine here at TT. Even failing (the first time) to get that rolled tarp lifted up dimmed your spirit just a little. But you came back as bright as ever.

Keep spreading your great attitude around - making other lives better will make your own life better.